you are handsome

recently addicted to this drama..

this drama really very nice...

once i watch..

then can't stop d..

wakaka..

so i hope can share with u all..

♥091119♥~~my 19th birthday♥^^♥

hahaha...

just wanna share my happiness with u all...

thx for u guys always being beside me...

love u all...

hope our friendship can stay forever~♥

thx for da birthday celebration^^

haha...

i really appreciate it^^

i will upload da video to here when i get all the photo of that day and done da video...

haha...

coz too many photos d..

hard to upload 1 by 1..

i really very happy tat day...

haha..

a special day for me...

this year i have my two birthday in one day...

my lunar and western birthday are meet together on this day>>♥091119♥...

so this day is very special to me..

wakaka..

thx for giving me such a unforgettable memories^^

♥thx for my best best friends>>cfc, kc, kah yan, yanti, ck, grace, ah lai, wen hao and wen jie♥

♥thx for the wishes from my special and complicated friend>>en zai=^^=♥

♥thx for the wishes from my best best friend js for ur wishes oso..♥

♥thx for my big sister>>ah loyd..although u din come to the party..♥

♥thx for the ''aeroplanes'' from AH ONN oso..hahaha..♥

♥thx for the surprise from my lovely housemates>>joan, ah shan, li jin and ah rong♥

♥thx for the gift from chein, lee hoon..i oso duno who r included in the gift..anywhere..thx ya♥

♥thx for all my best friends and all my friends..thx for the birthday wishes♥

haha..

thx for make my birthday become so special for me^^♥

last day of 18 years old...

today...

18 November 2009...

is the last day of my 18 years old...

after 12.00 midnight...

i will be 19 years old d...

people say...

18 years old is a most memorable year for all people..

coz once people reach 18...

will considered adult...

but this year for me...

really is a memorable year...

not happy but SAD...

coz i lost my grandma...

an accident make her leave us...

i know she will leave in a dream...

i had the dream about 4 or 5 months before she accident...

but...

i never say out...

i never stop it...

till now...

i still can't accept her leave...

i still feel that she is alive...

every time when i think about her...

my tear always wanna drop out from my eyes...

especially in class...

i always think about her suddenly...

i always recall the day that she passed away...

the day that the undertaker put her into the coffin...

i still can't walk out from this reality...

but i still need to act strong n happy in front of others...

i dun want let others worried about me...

i dun want let others see my tear...

this year...

i lost my dearest grandma...

this make my 19th birthday become meaningless...

as usual...

every year when my birthday wanna reach...

i will feel very sad...

i never feel happy becoz of my coming birthday...

this year also...

i feel more n more sad...

totally no mood to celebrate my birthday...

but i can't and duno how to reject my best friends' invitation...

i know they wanna help me celebrate birthday...

i dun wanna make them feel disappointed...

but......

now...

i feel like wanna cry only...

too many things happened in my 18 years old year...

make me duno how to hold it d...

sometime really can't stand d...

'he' ask me back to him...

be his gf again...

i thought he is sincere...

coz he keep asking me...

but...

last few weeks...

my friend tell me...

actually 'he' got gf d...

n tat girl i noe her also...

this really hurt me...

y he wanna cheat me like tat...

feel like i am his toy only!!!!!

feel scare that he will call me tonight...

hope he won't...

many things happened during this year...

make me more mature...

make me look through a lots of things...

make me.......

feel like wanna have a shoulder to let me rest...

need a hug to comfort me...

sometime feel like...

i really lost myself d...

i can't find where am i now...

who am i??

i also duno...

today...

i recall many things that happened in this year...

feel like wanna cry only...

i miss the luo wei that always be quiet...

always hide herself alone..

and....................

really miss her...

where is she now??

should i find her back??

still got many things haven't write...

i am rush in time now..

later i come back...

i continue it...

this year got many sweet memories oso..