unacceptable

last month...

many things happened...

foundation year finished...

sem break start...

my frenz come my house...

my grandma accident suddenly...

beta year start...

my grandma passed away...

see through many people's heart...

from disappointed to despaired...

many many many things really make me and force be become more mature...

suddenly...

a big burden drop on my shoulder...

so heavy...

but i can't complain...

coz it's my responsibility and my fate...

i need to face it...

so i think smile and laugh are the most suitable way for me to conceal all my sadness and so on...

i miss my grandma so much...

although i din meet her always when she was alive...

but i am so sad when this kind of things happened on her...

till now...

i still can't believe that she had passed away d...

y my dream so accurate...

i really c all this things inside that dream clearly...

y i din tell my mother 1st...

if i got tell...

my mother will call my grandma to prevent to it...

then my grandma maybe will still alive...

i hate the dream...

y i din tell...

jz becoz of i scare my mum will scold me...

but i forget that my dream will all become reality 1...

all things that appear in my dreams before...

will appear in reality 1...

how come like tat...

even the photo of my grandma and the whole decoration of the funeral were totally same!!!

how come like tat!!!!

who can tell me???

i totally collapse when i saw my grandma photo and the decorations...

really can't accept it till now...

hope time will help me...

*photo took with my grandma last two years when her birthday*