Lonely Christmas...

Merry Christmas^^

haha..

this year..

i am having a lonely christmas..

stay in ixora alone..

celebrate myself..

fell like wanna cry this few days..

i miss my home so much...

i tot i can celebrate this christmas with u all..

so i stay in Melaka..

but..

at last..

i also need to pass this christmas alone..

i didn't blame u all..

coz this is my decision..

tat day..

when i was studying for my last paper>>microeconomics..

i cried..

suddenly cried..

fell like super stress tat night..

coz the next day exam d..

but..

i haven't finish study and i forget all the things tat i had study last few days..

my brain totally blank and can't accept any things..

so i cried..

i neva cried when i study..

tis is the 1st time i cried when i am studying..

when i cried..

i fell like wanna find a friend to talk to..

but..

i can't found any..

coz i duno who can listen to me..

sometimes fell like i am a useless ppl..

coz no ppl will willing listen to me..

today is christmas eve..

but no one accompany me..

here..

just got me alone..

waiting for the chirstmas ring rang..

waiting for the Santa Claus..

n....

doing everythings alone..

but tis make me learn some moral value..

i.e.

never ever put the hope and expectations on others..

coz tis will always make u feel disappointed when the hope neva realize..

once u have see through everything...

u will be ok..

haha..

i see through d..

so i won't put any expectation on anyone..

i just trust myself...

i hate the feeling tat like be boycott..

so i won't do tat to all the ppl beside me..

but...

haha..

anywhere..

merry christmas and happy new year to all^^