tired..!!

i think i really need to have a people to talk to...
i gonna crazy d...
alot of things stuck inside my heart...
i hope i can cry out...
but...
i duno how to cry d....

i feel stress to everything...
i never have such feeling before...
who can tell me how to do??
i have tired been...
forcing myself doing all the things that i dun like...
forcing myself forget all the things that i dun willing to forget...
forcing myself adapt to this environment...
forcing myself.......

the more power u get...
the more responsibility u had...
the more friends u lost...
the more unhappy u are...

trying to ignore all the things...
but i feel really disappointed sometimes...
i miss my foundation time so much...
i miss the time that go out with one whole gang of friends...
i miss the time that together with everyone...
i miss the time that walking in campus in a big gang...
i miss the time that having fun with everyone...
but now..
the time getting lesser and lesser...
can the time flow backwards?
yea...
of coz it can't...
what's wrong with me??
where is my confidence??
i had lost my confidence...

trying to find it back...

i regret that i have did something that make my life changed 360 degree...
i really regret...
but what can i do??
nothing but standing up alone...
Don’t waste your time regretting all your wrongs...
Know that in the end you’ll get what your heart longs...
sorry to my heart...
because all damage...
wondering how useless i am...

just saw 1 words...
very meaningful...
"you change for 1 of 2 reasons...
either you learn enough to want to...
or been hurt enough you have to.."
ya...
this is the reason y i change alot...
i just wanna protect myself...
i always care about others more than myself...
now...
i want to learn to care about myself 1st...
think about myself 1st before doing everything...

to someone...
no need to do anything purposely in front of me...
i won't give u any response...
if u think doing things in front of me purposely is ur habit~~
just remain it~
n i will say THANK YOU VERY MUCH to u...
coz u stronger my "immunity"...
now i become stronger n stronger~
haha...
so u just KEEP IT UP ya...
hahaha~~