let bygones be bygones..

this few days...
contact with him almost everyday...
because of something..
he tell me that if he got new gf...
he will tell me...
but...
can i trust him??
kaka...
in this world no one can be trust...
except myself...
that day...
he ask me...
is he really very abuse in everything especially in love?
i say, YES...
he really very 'mu' and slow in love...
he always duno what should do when i am with him...
he never try to understand what i am thinking and what i want...
every time he ask me go out with him...
i really can't go out alone with a guy...
because of my house rule...
but he always din bother it...
i say i can't go out with him...
he sure will start to quarrel with me...
haha...
back to here...
i called him that day when i walk to PAT class after finish PBU class...
i talk with him on the whole journey...
telling him how to treat a girl...
that night...
he sms me and ask me...
girl always thinking of what in their heart?
i really duno how to answer him...
i just say i duno and if you want to know...
you must try your hard to understand girl...
next day...
when he sms me during my moral presentation...
he ask me...
what am i thinking and feel...
when i am with him...
haha...
what a stupid question...
then that night...
he add me in friendster...
then he change his msn PM next day...
he say...
''i really felt sorry to me in this few months since we break up..i also felt that you change a lot d...
maybe is become happier or what...the feeling that you give me is different with before d...''
haha...
am i really change a lot???
i also duno...
here is some words to him...
although he duno my blog...
haha...
long yew...
dun felt sorry to me...
all are pass d...
so just let it go...
we still are friends...
you are my god brother somemore...
haha...
hope you can find a girl that is really suit you...
ya...
maybe you are right...
i really change a lot...
since no you beside me...
i am more independent than you are beside me...
although when we are together...
you seldom accompany me whether when i am happy or sad...
haha...
thanks a lot...
because of you...
i know what is love...
what a hurt thing...
haha...
because of you...
i know that i only can trust myself...
i know that i should face all the things myself...
i know how to hide my sadness behind my fake smiley face...
i learn how to smile when i am damn sad...
haha...
because of you...
i learn how to force myself to smile and do all the things that i dun like to do...
my mind become more mature than before...
really really thanks...
and also...
thanks for love me before...
thanks for treat me so nice before...
this is the last blog that i write for you..
i will obey all the things that i promise you...
hope you also...
and please dun lie me again...
i HATE liar....
haha...
happy always and take care^^
let bygones be bygones...
we must look forward to our future...
but not look backward...