alone...

recently i suddenly feel that..
there got a gape between me and you all..
a big big big gape..
am i do any things that make you all angry?
or is i think too much d?
suddenly feel that i can't mix into you all d..
got a bit lose..
i always don't know what you all talking about...
always don't know everything..
maybe is my fault..
maybe i did any thing that make you all go far away from me..
maybe ken is right..
he said i should tell others when i have any things happy or sad..
he said that i can tell the friend who care me..
but when can i find a friend that is care me than i care him/her?
is it because i got many secrets about myself?
is it because i never tell you all about it?
loyd got say before..
if we are best friends..
we won't have secret between us..
i know he is right..
but sometimes..
i really hate to say out my secret..
not hate..
is hard..
i also don't like to say out my sadness..
because i don't like to trouble others..
and sometimes is very hard to me to face it..
maybe i should back to my life before..
the life that only got me..
the life that is alone..
haha..
i think alone is more suitable for me..
because i used to be alone..
i am always alone..
and that is why i never trust on others..
because i scare to be hurt..
sorry..